okay, on with the blogging.

What is happening? Where's it happening? How come it's happening? And lastly... why wasn't I invited!
LOL
Welcome back to places dark, dank and donk to see once more what the Topcat has instore for you. Well not much frankly; the background is the same shade of black that it has been for the last week or so, but hopefully I'll be getting a decorator in to make this place looking proper interesting at the very least. Tings are crazy as always... no they're not really, I'm just crazy and the world doesn't seem to want to conform with my crazyness. I find myself, for the first time in a long time actually stuck doing nothing. I now have time to do stuff, and unfortunately don't feel like doing anything. Friends are good to chat to though, they're always doing something interesting and you can talk about whatever they are doing.

Oh, I guess I've been playing around with my mobile, it turned on once on its own by bumping into something so that's going to be interesting in the future. I'm going to want to use it finally and the battery will be flat. I can tell that a lot of people are going to be mad at me for not having the mobile on all the time. Ah well, I never wanted a mobile so NYAAAHH *sticks tongue out*.

I'm feeling a bit out of place with the world. There are things I want to do, but can't yet. There are people I want to be with, but can't yet. It's a waiting game, that I'm willing to play, but I am unsure of when it will end. Will I miss my opportunity if I wait too long? Or will I be too impulsive and impatient and blow it all by not waiting long enough. Mmmhh.... Maybe I should eat rice with chopsticks, a good friend of mine says it teaches you patience. I could certainly use that now. I know I'm not a perfect person, but I must have a fair amount of good karma stashed away somewhere, and well, I wanna cash in now!

Nuff whinging, I hate whingers.

And now onto sports... I don't play them, I don't watch them all that much... there that's it.
Oh and alcohmohol is naughty, makes you do things u later regret. What I don't get is how people get so drunk that they don't remember anything. I've been super drunk and I remember all... oh GOD do I remember all. Also, there is no way to drink away your sorrows. Try not to rely on your antidepressants etc. These postpone the pain and make it last longer. Alcohol eccentuates whatever emotion you are truly feeling, which sucks if you're sad, but is great if you're watching "Team America" among good friends, as I did this Thursday, YAY! Must do it again sometime.

I'm home alone at the moment... no parents... nice big house... a few beds... and no-one to share them with. Arrgghh, what I'd give not to be single right now. See it has its ups and downs. On the positive, I don't have to be anybody else's second half. I am my own man, I can be myself, I can watch my horror movies, I can play my music, I can do what I like... just I gotta do it alone.

I'd like to know what women thought, figure out how der crazy brains work, know what they wanted, and know who wanted me. See this thing is what I hate, the guy has got to ask the girl out. Some idiot wrote this unwritten rule and guys have got to do this thingy wherein they're scared of being rejected. Why can't it, for once, be the other way around. Why do guys have to do all the guess work until they either get it right, or fudge it up and pick the wrong gal.

I think I'll write back when I'm happier, I can't seem to make my way out of the morbid writing stage. Don't worry about me, I'm not going to jump off a bridge. I can't really be bothered doing that anyway, too much effort. I'm feeling fine, it's just that I'm writing sadly, I dunno. I'm just in a lonely mood I guess. Apparently a friend of mine is going to try to find me someone to 'get with'. I know who I want... waiting's a real bitch though. I've been waiting for 21 yrs, what's another _____?____ going to hurt.

Okay now Topcat is going to chipper up, get his arms movin', his tail swishin', and his claws scratchin' and going to give another little poem that I'm going to write on the spot. Right now for you special blog readers and replyers.

The house is large but I am small,

there's plenty room to fit you all,

if you could come and stay awhile,

some company would make me smile,

and when you need some comfort too,

when you're alone I'll come see you.

I luv u, goo'bye!

xoxo