so it's tuesday.
kinda been dreading it, this day like a bandaid.
I want to rip it off quickly and get it over with.
Kinda had a thing a month ago where i saw some1 every day for 2 weeks.
1st week = hollywood
2nd week... i don't know.
It kinda went pear shaped little bit. She got unsure, which led to me getting unsure, which led to the last 2 weeks not seeing each other so we can think on our own (and yeah we both were ludicrously busy too).
I keep wondering, why do I meet so many cool people all at once?
Why aren't they spread out more instead of leaving huge dirges inbetween where i feel cruddy and alone.
Wow, emo much?
Anyway, todays the day we meet up and decide our position. Awesome friends? or more?
As far as choices go I can't lose, but I'm thinking the former choice is going to win out. We both want different futures and if it's gonna be a long-term thang (which it would be) then those potential futures should mesh better.
I'm one confused puppy.
I don't know what to do with awesome ppl i meet. Maybe I should regain some numbers in the awesome friends department 1st as a couple have dropped off the grid with me recently. But will I be missing out on some incredible experiences by doing that? By not having something more? Or maybe it's smart not to have more now, I mean I have no job and no idea where I'm living in 2 months. Maybe I should be stable 1st. Maybe things are best kept simple, i don't want to presume too much of ppls affections towards me, that has stuffed me up many a time.
hmmmmm
I'm still unsure. Hoped writing my thoughts would help but... *msg tone* wait a sec guys... it's her, she's gonna be late. Timing in my life, constantly bad. Why are so many cool ppl here now?
..... WHY AM I BITCHING ABOUT HAVING TOO MANY COOL PPL IN MY LIFE? grrrr
It's the whole timing thing. I will ponder on this some more and get back to you. ponder ponder ponder.
check my "REPO! the genetic opera" review on my youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu8vyJaqceM
and my attempt at singing part of 1 of the songs from this movie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9mo4Q0bf_o
kinda been dreading it, this day like a bandaid.
I want to rip it off quickly and get it over with.
Kinda had a thing a month ago where i saw some1 every day for 2 weeks.
1st week = hollywood
2nd week... i don't know.
It kinda went pear shaped little bit. She got unsure, which led to me getting unsure, which led to the last 2 weeks not seeing each other so we can think on our own (and yeah we both were ludicrously busy too).
I keep wondering, why do I meet so many cool people all at once?
Why aren't they spread out more instead of leaving huge dirges inbetween where i feel cruddy and alone.
Wow, emo much?
Anyway, todays the day we meet up and decide our position. Awesome friends? or more?
As far as choices go I can't lose, but I'm thinking the former choice is going to win out. We both want different futures and if it's gonna be a long-term thang (which it would be) then those potential futures should mesh better.
I'm one confused puppy.
I don't know what to do with awesome ppl i meet. Maybe I should regain some numbers in the awesome friends department 1st as a couple have dropped off the grid with me recently. But will I be missing out on some incredible experiences by doing that? By not having something more? Or maybe it's smart not to have more now, I mean I have no job and no idea where I'm living in 2 months. Maybe I should be stable 1st. Maybe things are best kept simple, i don't want to presume too much of ppls affections towards me, that has stuffed me up many a time.
hmmmmm
I'm still unsure. Hoped writing my thoughts would help but... *msg tone* wait a sec guys... it's her, she's gonna be late. Timing in my life, constantly bad. Why are so many cool ppl here now?
..... WHY AM I BITCHING ABOUT HAVING TOO MANY COOL PPL IN MY LIFE? grrrr
It's the whole timing thing. I will ponder on this some more and get back to you. ponder ponder ponder.
check my "REPO! the genetic opera" review on my youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu8vyJaqceM
and my attempt at singing part of 1 of the songs from this movie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9mo4Q0bf_o
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